| It's been long since I last updated my blog and now I'm here again blogg-ing. But today I'll type something different, different in the sense that I'm going to make a testimony for God. After reading the two booklets of testimony that my brothers and sisters have pen down, I realised how much God has also given and helped me during those times when I needed Him.So here I go..... Yesterday was my last day of work at S'pore baby and child clinic and all those misunderstanding, cursing, gossiping has come to a stop. Since it was going to be my last day, I should be happy because I was dreaded to resign long ago. Ironically, I didnt. I was very much disappointed and was unwilling to do so. Afterall, it has been a month plus working there and before I could get to know those people and the details of the medical report, I had to leave. What was even more strange was I have forgiven the unknown person who has backstabbed me. But I was reminded by God, through Pastor Lai, that I should forgive others but should never forget about those incidents. It's because you will gain experience through them and learn not to fall into it. Then it was about 12 plus 1 and I dreaded myself to pack the lappy, scanner, harddisk. I bid my farewell to the people at the counter, Belle, Lynn, Issiah(sp?) and went to signoff in sister's room. We talked about the unhappiness I experienced there, it was then that I learnt about the real reason of me stop-ping work after jan. I was very glad and greatful that God given me the chance and the "yong qi" to clarify everything with sister yesterday. From this I know God is with me every moment especially yesterday. If He wasnt, I wouldnt have the "yong qi" to ask her so many things. Today is Sunday and it's the Lord's day! I woke up at 8 plus this morning and I was struggling to fight against satan. I was tempted not to attend service. Since it has been 2 weeks which I didnt go to church, it will make no difference if I go this time round. Furthermore, it was already 9am and I would be late even if I go. After much fighting, I overcome him (with God)! I decided to take a cab there and so as not to be late. The first batch of people I saw while waiting for the lift were lixin's family and other bros and sis(s). And lixin's mom told me that they had been waiting for it since some mins again but after I came, it arrived. Perhaps, God wants to welcome me back to church by sending them there. Service ended an hour plus later. 10 min break for today becos of the CNY performance. This 10 mins was the most unpleasant time for me. Suddenly, I felt so down about going to church. I couldnt mingle with lixin, yiwen, and yiwen's friend today, it seems like it was wrong for me to atttend service as I felt left out from their conversaction(unlike in the past). Soon after, Yiwen and her friend went to the washroom while Lixin went off to talk to Meiyun. This made me more moody about it, I left the room and stood outside all by myself. At that point of time, I was thinking "I should have given in, I shouldnt have come and making myself feeling so terrible." Then Meiyun came out and asked me why I was standing outside alone. Sorry to say but I lied to her that it was too cold to stay inside. She talked to me about the incidents which had happened in my work and also pray for me. We went into the room again for the performance. It was hilarious especially the "talk" that Shao wei(sp?) and Peter put up and the skit which was written by Matthew and acted by meiyun, darius, gloria(sp?), etc. It ended which a few words from Pastor Lai and they totally affected me. He said, we must always respect and obey our elders. Do not live in your own world and not understand/realise the changes and people around you. Your grandparents and your parents will not be by your side all the time. They will go very fast later and at that time you will be regretting you havent give in some commitment to them. Also, we may not be able to wake up every morning. If you do, pls be reminded to thank the Lord for giving you another day on Earth. Remember, thank the Lord for another day He has given you to serve Him again instead of being able to do something you want. Lastly, whenever you have sinned or have left God, remember to reconcile and ask for forgiveness so that you can come back to Him. No matter what happens, God will always be waiting and wanting us, as His children, to return to His sides. It's all about us whether or not we want to repent our sins. I believe what Pastor Lai has said, it was all meant for me. God wants to answer all these questions that I always have since sometime ago. Now I no longer fear death. Instead of being worried about me having to die one day and the body being burnt to ashes, I'm now looking and longing for the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and His kingdom. Since everyone has to die, why dont I spend my time contributing to church, serving Him and helping others? I must, therefore, remind myself every now and then the positive side of death rather than the negatives. To seek for His kingdom because He will give me a beautiful body, and there will be no worries and pain. Also, He reminded me to come back to Him no matter how much pain and sorrow I may go through in life. He is who I can always speck to, where I can find comfort in, and someone whom is a perfect person for me. While typing this, I suddenly recalled how much God has given and helped me in the past. I'm really thankful for all these He has done. I know that I'm nothing to receive Him as a saviour, but I will continue to commit into this relationship with God. Anyway, I want to Thank Him again for answering my prayer! Mom went to church today after some 24618612973091230 months. I'm so greatful that He has once again call upon her and softing her heart so as to receive Him into her heart again. Praise the Lord! Allelujah! |
